No More Running

With the end of track past and no more training for the rest of the season, this has presented itself with a whole new chance for me to do something. Now untill I find out what to do with that exrta time i just go home early and have extra time to do some homework. Being home early means that I am the only one home for about two hours or so. And with those to hours that I have i get a chance to thing and catch a little nap. Well today was something was one of those days that was nothing I really expected. I recived a letter from someone that entered my life a year ago. He showed up for a not so good reason but he helped me get to a better place then I was then he showed up. Now i am sitting reading his letter and thinking about why I stopped seeing him in a long time, the only good reason is that I thought that I was back to normal and ok to go. And becasue of things that go on in my everyday life, that seem to keep happening and now even most recently, I am not a good that I think. Now I am hopeing that I can get thought everything on my own, but still would it be ok that I use this crutch again or will I ever learn on my own? Oh well that about it, now I am going to try and catch some sleep for my ACTs tomorrow.

Money

Today was one of the most lad back days that I have had in a long time. It was nice. Now the only problem is that I now have to do a ton of homework. Oh, well all that I know is that I am makeing some money tonight. BOOYAAAHH!!!! All that I know is that I am looking forward to this weekend, time to go all out and live it up. So hold and get ready.

Second

I have been looking at some old race results this afternoon and was tracking my times. I know that I have been getting better but just about every year I seem to hit this barrier that i cant really get through. And the next year I shatter that time, sometimes just by a second or two, but other years I shatter it by a bunch of seconds. The one thing that I just cant figure out is what stops me from not hitting that wall every year. After spending Friday night up in Boulder, I realized a few things. I dont always go for that new faster time, not even thinking about it i freak myself out of hitting that faster time. I know my legs can go faster i am just afraid, not really sure why, it just happens. Once I figured that out I looked a few other parts of my life and saw that I did freaked myself out there too. So this weekend will be my real last chance to prove myself, to on one else but my myself, that I can go for what I really want.